Why Me? All in my head

So  lately I’ve been getting up in the morning asking myself ” why Me?” .  I know i’m in the process of starting over and i’m trying to stay positive throughout this whole ordeal. It has been hard though especially when day by day goes by and nothing as far as hearing from employers or calling to find out someone else was chosen. Then of course I start thinking the things we all start thinking about like , ” what did I do to deserve this” or ” Why didn’t this happen to someone else in the office other than me?” .

Then I stop myself and realize there is a reason for everything. I’m going to emerge from this and be Awesome!!!  Then I’m going to thank the people that caused me to be in this situation and say ” Thank you “.


WordPress Love

I would like to THANK everyone for all the support and love that I have received here so far. I know there are a lot of blog sites out there and I actually found WP by looking at sites that offer advice about online writing and making it a career.  I know I’ve only been on here for like 3 days and the love and support everyone is showing me just reassures me that I made the right choice!

I have heard of WP before but I had no idea that it was a blogging site . If  I had know this i’d been on here a couple of years ago. I’ve always loved to write , usually poetry. I tried this other blog site about 2 years ago but it was more complicated than WP, and it didn’t go anywhere. Just from the last couple of days I can see that I have a chance in making one of my Birthday goals being very reachable.

So again “THANK YOU” . I really appreciate everything and if there is any advice that anyone wants to offer to help make my blog better , please feel free to comment and let me know. I am working on getting a picture up but everything takes time …..




My Birthday and Goals

Today is my 39th Birthday…. I usually spend at least part of my birthday reflecting on my life and then trying to figure out where I wanna be  in 6 months and then also this time next year. Its kinda like my birthday is my New Years . I set goals and work a goal board as reminders and record my progress as time goes.

So far I’ve come up with the fact that I will lose at least 50 lbs in about 6 months. I’m already on my way to that goal because i started working out again. I also want to walk/run in a couple of at least half marathons if not full marathons.

Then of course as i’m writing this i’m thinking of more to accomplish by this time next year. I want at least 1000+ followers on here by my birthday next year. Any help would be appreciated{hint, hint} lol.  Like hopefully my blog will help me start a writing career . Maybe someone will read my blog and enjoy my writing style and decide to let me write for their company.   Then I will accomplish being able to work from home and being successful at it.

I also want to do more with my family ,go on mini vacations. I think sometimes we get so busy and involved in life we forget to stop and enjoy our family. Taking just a weekend to unwind and go somewhere new and different. Like I know my husband and my girls have never been on a train before  , maybe plan a trip taking a train and go check out a zoo and do some shopping. I like botanical gardens , go drive and find some new ones I haven’t been to yet.


I have the whole day to think of a few more things , not to many to get overwhelmed. Just enough to keep my busy working my butt of to reach my goals….. I’m just curious anyone else do something similar to this for their birthdays ?



how i got here

To tell the truth I know how i got here but I don’t know how I got here, if that makes any sense. I got to comfortable and made a mistake ,said the wrong thing and got fired.  However , you become a product of your environment and  the office i worked in was no virgin. If the office walls could talk ,everyone would have been fired.

I’ve decided though no matter what or how it happened , I’m here and nothing is changing that. Now i’m trying to decide where to go from here. I need to get back on my feet and quite honestly i’m not sure where to start or how to get there. This is why I feel i’m starting over. I feel like my whole life is on the line and that my next decisions are going to make me or break me.

The things I do know : I want to improve my life , all aspects. I want to be able to stand up and say ” I absolutely LOVE my life” and when I say this, I won’t be bullshitting myself or anyone else !

What to do next ??? Well this is going to be my journey of figuring out myself and getting back on track . What ever that means.